Nadot's Words

Dear Nadot,

It's been 7 months since you left Malaysia but I know you feel like it was only yesterday you arrived in Edinburgh Airport. You used to say that you couldn't make it there. You will miss your family so much that you can't concentrate. You won't get good friends that will understand you like you have in Malaysia. You will feel lonely without AWAK by your side and you'll be in tears all day that you think you might become thin.

But all things happened the other way round. You still miss your family, but you were able to concentrate and Alhamdulillah, you've passed all your papers. Yes, you met few selfish people, but still, you have a group of very good friends that understand you and accept you just the way you are. You still get lonely now and then without AWAK by your side, but you guys text each other everyday and you know that he'll be waiting for you and you'll be waiting for him too. And yes, you cried sometimes when you were feeling down, but you're not getting any thinner! In fact you've gained a few more kg! I'm very proud of you Nadot! I really am! =)

Within this 5 months, there are few things that you need to do and accomplished. First and the most important, is to focus on your dissertation. I know you have trouble focusing or concentrating on anything, and you have trouble waking up early in the morning, and you're also as lazy as Garfield, but, for the sake of your family, your sponsor, and yourself, do make sure that you try your best in doing your project and try to submit it early of August. Search for more journals, start writing the intro, method and literature review. Try not to do things last minute as you always did. Just believe in yourself, pray to God, and InsyaAllah, everything will turn out okay.

Secondly, cherish your friends around you. You might not see each other anymore once they are back in Malaysia and even if you still see or contact each other, you know that it won't be the same. They will have their own life and so will you. Therefore, do cherish every moment while you are here. Stop being emotional or childish and just enjoy your life there. You won't get to do some of the things you did there once you're back in Malaysia.

Next, improve your cooking skill while you are there. Yes, I know you have turned to be quite a good cook. But keep learning. Try new recipes, help K Linda in the kitchen more often, and if mesra.resipi.net server is down, there are still loads of website with great recipes.

Finally, please stop shopping too much. Why the hell do you need to buy new clothes every week? Your wardrobe looks like its going to collapse soon. You don't have enough space to keep all your clothes and you don't even wear all the things you've bought. Same goes with your novels. You keep buying new books even when you haven't finished reading those you had bought previously. And please stop visiting amazon.co.uk and ebay.co.uk everyday. You are not strong enough to resist the temptation those websites have. You keep buying stuffs that you know you will rarely or never use. Please don't answer back when I'm talking to you. ok? I'm getting a migraine just thinking how you are going to bring all your stuffs back to Malaysia.

Okay, okay. I'll stop here I guess. There are still loads of things I should have written here, but Diari AF6 Episode 25 and 26 are calling me to watch them. So, till fingers meet keyboard again..hihi. Do take care ok!.. Later!

Yours truly,

Si Comel yang baik... =)

"Nothing is more memorable than a smell. One scent can be unexpected, momentary and fleeting, yet conjure up a childhood summer beside a lake in the mountains." -Diane Ackerman

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It always amazes me, how a simple smell could rush all the memories back into my head. All the bitter sweet memories. Some which I've always remember and some that I've tried hard to forget and finally managed to do so.

That smell. It triggered something inside of me that had long been forgotten. Something that made me happy and sad at the same time.

I love that smell. =)

"Happiness pulses with every beat of my heart".  ~Emily Logan Decens
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She was happy tonight. Very happy. She talked on the phone with her beloved sister, mother and her special someone. She just couldn't stop singing after all those phone calls she made. "Love is in the air", she said. She smiled, she laughed. She felt like as if she was flying. She couldn't concentrate on her works. Loads of works. She was very happy. And again, she didn't understand why. She was really sad yesterday, and she was very happy today. She felt silly for her easily-changing-moods. Hahaha. She laughed again. And smiled.

And she's still smiling.... =)

"We were talking about the space between us all and the people who hide themselves behind a wall of illusion. Never glimpse the truth - then it's far too late when they pass away" - George Harrison

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She was sad and depressed the whole day. Her friends managed to make her forget her sadness for a while. So, she laughed, she sang. She looked happy. She felt a bit happy too. But sometimes, she overreacted and became overly childish. And when she realized she was overreacted, she felt sad again; blaming herself for being so childish and immature. She didn't quite know what was wrong with her today.

After her friends went back home, she absorbed herself in her story book world. Imagining herself as Jasmin Field and lived in her cynical/idealistic world. She just loved to do that sometimes. Hiding from the bitterness of the reality by envisioning herself as one of the characters of her uncountable novels.

She felt hungry. She get off her bed, marking the page where she last read with a University-of-Oxford bookmark and left it on her desk. She ate with her beloved housemate, chatting and gossiping happily, finished her late night supper and went back to her room - her haven, her shelter, her asylum, her sanctuary.

She then sat for a while in front of her laptop and chatted with some friends. She asked a friend whom she was chatting with to give her a piece of advice about anything as she thought it might lift her spirit up or enlighten her mood or just ..just..hhmmm... She didn't really know why she needed the advice for. Anyway, her friend (maybe aware or maybe unaware of her being 'down') just told her 'Live life happily, and don't be sad'. With only that one simple sentence, she burst into tears. And again, for the umpteenth times that day, she felt lost and didn't understand what went wrong with herself.

So, she decided to hide again. Absorbing herself in her new character, Jasmin Field from the novel Acting Up, she loss herself once again...

Pada yg jijik, sila jangan bace. I'm usually not the kind of person who sangat poyo meluahkan isi hati n perut secare public.. (kawan2 aku, korg tau kan aku mcm ne..huhu)

Tapi this time, i just feel like writing/typing something for Awak because I didn't get to talk to him today and simply because i miss him...hohoho...

Dah rase geli?...blah..blah...blah....hohoho

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Hi Awak...

How was your day? I didn't get a chance to talk to you today and sorry for not replying your sms earlier. And when I did reply, you were already asleep.

Anyway, It's 12 am in the morning. Just done watching Sindarela with K Linda and in 5 minutes, we're going to have a late supper (makan nasik consider supper bley wak?..hihi)...

I miss u so much today... (heeee..i'm blushing...hohoho...jgn berharap ye wak...awak mmg tau sy tak blushing bile malu..hohoho).. But seriously, I mish u so much...huhu..

Thank you for everything you've done for me. Thank you for your supports. Thank you for being very understanding. Thank you for just being there. Thank you for putting up with me (again, I know, it's very very hard). And finally, thank you for loving me. =)

I never thought I could survive this long distance relationship. I always thought i'll be the one who surrender and give up this relationship (you know la i'm very the ngade-ngade kan..huhu). But because of your patience (wat donno bile sy marah) and love, Alhamdulillah, we are still standing strong just like 3 years ago when we started being together. In fact, I believe we are much stronger now and hopefully, will become stronger with each day to come.

Alamak Awak.. Saya dah ngantuk la plak. There are still loads of things to say, but i'll save it when I call you later k. All the mushy2 stuffs pun, saye cakap dalam phone k. Nanti diorg bace, segan la saye...hilang la kemachoan sy..hahahahahaha...

Ape pun, I'm very very lucky to have you by my side (but not as lucky as you yang dapat saye yg best ni... hahahahha..sian awak ek dpt sy...sy bersimpati..hohohoho..). I WEV U!!...huhuhu

Papai!!! =)

p/s: Kalau kite gaduh ke, saye delete la post ni..and hopefully nobody will ever remember that I'd posted this before. hoohoho...

Ways to read my blog:-

• Ignore all the grammar mistakes


• Ignore all the spelling mistakes


• Ignore all the inappropriate/unsuitable vocabs


• Ignore all the bad words


• Just don't ignore me!..hohoho

Enuff said!! =)

Aku mcm bosan. So, nak merepek menceritekan dengan ringkas psl hari ni..huhu

Hari ini bermula dengan......

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10 am - woke up.. surfed the internet..

11 am - tried making the puding jagung for the 2nd time..

2.10 pm - went down to kedai cina, nina's supermarket, Razwan, and ScotMid - bought evaporated milk, custards, toilet rolls etc..

2.50 pm - kept all the stuffs bought at home, went back down and waited for leman n cidud at the bus stop

3.05 pm - walked to uncle T, called AWAK on the way, had a cup of cappuccino, watched them makan2 x igt org..hihi, read the newspaper.

4.15 pm - walked back home.

4.30 pm - arrived home. tried making the puding jagung for the 3rd time!arghh... watched you tube. watched leman n cidud watching you tube. they ate my 1st and 2nd trial of puding jagung. Baity n Makju arrived home.

5.30 pm - Waited for Cidud doing his thing in the toilet. He blamed our flush toilet for not flushing all his faeces down the drain pipe until the 3rd trial (tp kitorg tau, sbb byk gile n penuh toilet bowl tu dia buang...huhu)

6.30 pm - Arrived at Abg Khai house. They served nasi lemak, spaghetti bolognese, roasted chicken cooked by Kak Aida. Sedaaaaaaaaapppppp...hihihi. Watched Buletin Utama (gile lame tak tengok since blah dr msia).


9.23 pm - Went to tesco - bought more custards. Arrived home, tried making the puding jagung for the 4th time.

10.30 pm - Jal and Elly arrived. The puding turned out okay at last! Yeay.. !!

11 pm - After four trials of making the puding, we started buat yg serius punye. 2 kali masak in a big periuk. huhu.

1.15 am - Habis masak. Baity, Jal n Elly still struggling with the kuih keria. Masuk bilik and started to write this blog.

1.50 am - I am now writing this third-last-sentence and im going to bed. Good night! Later peeps...!..hohohoho