Nadot's Words

"Inside some of us is a thin person struggling to get out, but they can usually be sedated with a few pieces of chocolate cake". ~Author Unknown

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As my friends, you guys should know how BIG I am... Not slightly big but very very big... More then obese I suppose...hehehe..

So, I am supposed to have the motivation to slim down a little (at least the lower part of my body). But sadly, I don't!

I tried to find myself a reason to lose my weight. Some of the main reasons and my arguments to those reasons are:

• Health reason - I know this is the most important reason why I should lose weight, but it still not enuff to motivate me to do so... I'm healthy now, so, why should I?


• Clothes - I could find my size at Scarlet Plus.... susah2 pun, boleh tempah..huhu


• Boyfriend - He said he loves me just the way I am, so...hehehe


• Appearance - The problem is, I'm confident. I don't see myself as ugly. I think I'm quite cute ape.. hohoho...

So, ape lagi nak pikir ni?....adoi la... Ape yg boleh disimpulkan ialah, aku mmg pemalas..hohoho...

Before I start, I would like to wish happy birthday to my two very dear friends, Amal (0211) and Suhaily (0411). May Allah bless you guys and Love ya !!

Time just passed me by like a tornado and suddenly November came. It has been almost two months since I left Edinburgh and it seems like some of the memories have started to fade away. Glad that I took a lot of pictures there which I can look at whenever I feel like it.

My workloads have started to pile up and being my usual last-minute-self, I haven't start a thing. Plus, as a new lecturer, my other new-lecturer-colleagues and I kene jadi invigilator untuk final year exam UiTM and kene jage 10 kali exam. Every exam takes 3 hours, mati ke tak..adoi la...

Di tambah lagi dgn my brother's wedding. Luckily cuti baru je diluluskan utk 14th Nov (next friday) coz have to drive my brother ke rumah pengantin perempuan kat kedah. Untuk kenduri at our place, aku x mintak cuti coz simpan cuti utk raye haji and krismas... ye la...baru start keje, cuti pun sikit je la...

Agak kecik hati coz ade org persoalkan nape I x amik cuti bile kenduri kat belah lelaki...tensen je.. dah le abg aku yg x sabar2 nak kawin, aku lak baru masuk keje, haruskah aku sanggup di bebel oleh ketua program sbb nak mintak cuti byk walaupun baru masuk keje sebulan lebey.... Siap ade cakap nnt aku kawin xde org nk tolong lak...ewah2.. Like I did nothing la for my brother... sabar nadot..jgn emo...huhuhu

So, ape pun... for those yg rajin bace my blog ni, jemput la datang kenduri kahwin along aku on the 22nd November dkt dewan komuniti near my house...sape2 yg nk dtg tp tatau tempat, do msg me ke..emel ke.. ape2 la....

Ade cousin datang rumah...so, later! :)

Remember i told u guys in my previous entry that I'm going to publish an emo post about someone. I'll do that later as I am now intending to write on something else that is also making me emo..huhuhu... I might be condemned or criticized for writing this, I don't give a damn, but just don't do it in my blog..hoho

Straight to the point, you know how some Malaysians studying or working overseas couldn't wait until they actually graduated or return to Malaysia for good to get married??..I really dont like these people.. Not everyone of them but mostly...huhu

Alasan UTAMA this kind of people bagi, usually because of AGAMA.. I'm not trying to make jokes on hukum Islam, I know, mmg better kawin dr kapel lame2, tambah dose n trbuat maksiat etc... but the issue is, diorg hanye menganggap yang diorg akan berdose kalau x kawin cepat, tp tak rase berdose n x sedar pun, yg by getting married dgn care ini, diorg akan menyusahkan kaum keluarge yg ada kat Malaysia especially their moms.

As I've mentioned earlier, bukan semua orang yg berkahwin while they were still overseas teruk. Some are very considerate. Macam maybe diorg kawin bile summer time cuti 3 months which give them enough time to settle hal2 perkahwinan diorg by themselves and also enough time to help out after the kenduri. Or those yang buat dulu perkara wajib (kalo mase n duit x cukup) iaitu just BERNIKAH and buat reception bile diorg dah balik Malaysia for good. Or maybe jugak, these people ade a very big family yang tidak bz yg boleh tolong diorg prepare everything utk majlis diorg..Orang-orang macam ini, ok je...

But not everyone is blessed with unbusy-very-big-family. And not everyone could get 3 months break just to get married. And not everyone is considerate enough to stop and think about others they will burden when they decided to get married. And I dislike this kind of people. And normally, this kind of people, terdiri dari orang bijak pandai, yang lepas SPM je, boleh fly overseas sbb bijak sangat. And because they've stayed overseas for sooo long, they never realize how hard their parents or family living their life each day or how busy they are. Boleh tahan lagi, kalau diorg tak bising2 nak itu nak ini, tp tah nape tah, org2 mcm ni, biasenye agak cerewet. With just a phone call and money transferred from overseas, they ordered their parents/sibling/friends to do this and that, dont want like this or like that, go buy this or that, dont want this colour, go and find that colour..etc..etc..etc... Then, yg emonye lagi, lepas kahwin, some of them won't even be staying together, sorg maybe kat utare n sorg maybe belajar kat selatan...adoi la...


That's what make me think sejak kenal dgn org2 mcm ni, for them, not getting married early enough is a sin, but menyusahkan parents/family tak pulak berdose eh..pelik gak... For the guys, couldn't their sperms wait a little longer before joining with the ovum and for the ladies, I know an ovum can only live for 24 hrs, but you'll get a new ovum each month, so, why can't u wait??!!

ye betul even yg kawin kat malaysia pun, mesti secare x langsung akan tersusahkan parents kite, tp insyaAllah, very minimum la...coz beli brg2, ade kite...carik baju ke, pelamin ke, pun sendiri jugak.. tp org2 yg diceritekan di atas ni, A - Z org kene watkan..cerewet lg...nak suh buat mcm2... x segan tul...adoi la..


Again, saye nak tegaskan, I'm not against early marriage. Kalau org tu cukup syarat, mampu or even di oversi pun dgn ciri2 that i've mentioned previously, go ahead. Kahwin cepat2. But to those yg hanye berpendapat kawin lambat berdose tapi menyusahkan mak ayah from A-Z (tanpe sdr org lain pun bz gak!) x berdose
, maleh ar nak cakap ape. Sah2 mmg selfish gile..

I know i'm far from perfect...I did hurt my parent's feeling n burden them at times. and feel bad everytime I did those. But these selfish people, they know nothing and aware of nothing and they think that they are perfect and never once stop to think that some people might get hurt because of something they do.


Enuff said!

So far, my life in Malaysia has been great, but a bit busy though... had to settle few stuffs regarding kakteh's punye study kat indon, then some other stuffs pasal along's wedding this coming november i.e tempah kad kawin etc then of course la sbb nk raye n nakstart working after raye, so kene la shopping kasut keje, handbags...bought a pair of working shoes dkt edinburgh, tp still dlm kotak yg x samapi2 lg..risau gile.. according to post opis, amik mase 10 days je..ni dah 2 weeks...my laptop's power cords and some important stuffs dalam kotak tu..mati le kalo x smpi...huhuhu

Sangat menyesal coz mase kat edin malas nak pikir pasal keje, so, x beli handbags n shoes awal2 dkt sane... mmg sgt menyesal ... my size sangat ssh nak carik dkt Malaysia. Kaki sangat besar seperti gergasi...huhu...I wear 42 euro size. dkt malaysia, normally size paling besar is 41 euro size...kecewe gile.... kene suruh k linda shopping kan ni...huhuhu... utk handbag plak, fortunately, k linda dgn baik hati gave me a farewell/birthday gift Guess handbag..ade la jugak satu handbag ala-ala org pegi keje punye...adoi la.. huhu

Last Friday, went berbuke pose with my close friends since high school. Even there were only 9 of us that day, it was great as finally, I get to meet my friends after a year not seeing them. Next meeting will be at my house on the 2nd week of raya (open house kecil-kecilan for my close friends..hehe), and hopefully those who didn't turn up for the buka pose event, will come eventually (jgn x dtg eh dawat,sue,ros,sare n lain2 yg mmg diwajibkan ittew)...

Then on Saturday, Dude belanje me buke pose at JW Marriot KL. We fought all the way from home to the hotel (my version of fight = I talk; Dude listen/ignore/wat dek/etc..hoho) and didn't talk at all for the 1st 20 minutes bile dh smpi kat hotel. but eventually, kene jugak bersuare coz sangat malas bangun amik buffet, so had to keluarkan my sweet little voice and dgn mengade-ngadenye suruh dude amikkan makanan.. yeay!.. hoho..the foods were really great .... waaaaayyy better than the buffet in The Apartment, klcc that i ate for berbuke with my friends the day before...with only rm 7 difference between the apartment and jw marriot, I get like more than 50 extra dishes...sooo worth it...

it's currently 1.22 am in the morning. My mom and neng still downstairs masak lontong n kuah kacang.. I offered to help kupas bawang putih tadi, but neng said x payah..so i played starwars battlefront with afiq for 2-3 hours..lucky me!..hohoho.. So, nak pegi intai mak then..then tido le kot...

Anyway, I was meaning to write about someone/something yang again, made me emo when I was still in Edinburgh..tp x berkesmpatan lagi.. (x best gile tulis using this pc..uurrghh...)... or maybe sbb bln pose, so sesi kutuk-mengutuk org (sikit-sikit je..hehe) kene la kurangkan sikit...hehehe... but still i will write about that someone...coz sgt geram..hohoh....

Anyway, to all my friends and those who know me, I wish you guys Selamat hari Raya Aidilfitri.. I also would like to apologize for everything I've done since the first day I've known you guys. I know I might be a pain in the as* sometimes, jadi mintak maaf sangat-sangat..and hope i'm forgiven... hehehe.. Thanks eh! ;)

Later!

With all those exclamation marks on the title, sounds like i'm very excited and happy to be back in Malaysia. But honestly, not that excited, and not that happy...hehehehe... But still, I'm glad I'm home.. ;)

I arrived in KLIA on the 12th of Sept at 5.15 pm. Sorry for not updating this blog earlier. I left my laptop's power adaptor in Edin and waiting for it to be delivered (Thanks so much K Linda..hihi). So, for the time being, I'm using our old PC which is very lembab & membantutkan selere untuk online everyday. ..huhu..Still having problem with my sleeping pattern and feel tired all the time. Wish that I could sleep for 72 hours straight non-stop (no, I don't want to be in coma, I just want to sleep..huhu)..

Already reported my arrival at UiTM. Not sure when I'll start working because my head of programme is on her break until today but hoping it will be after raya ...huhu

Being home, I've turned myself to my lazy-self and not really proud of it. But, with my room upstairs and the kitchen downstairs, there's nothing I could do to help..hohoho.. However, I've impressed my family and myself by making roti jala and and chicken curry yesterday (taught by K linda) .. hehehe.. wasn't bad at all.. hoho...

Guess I'll stop here..not really in the mood to write. Will update more once I get my laptop's power cords. Later!! ;)

I can't wait to go back, but at the same time, I don't want to go back...huhuhu...

I've just received my flight e-ticket and I will be departing from Edinburgh Airport on the 11th Sept at 2.50 pm. Then. I'll be arriving at Heathrow around 4 pm and have to wait 6 hours before my flight back to KL. So, I've bought few books and I have my sudoku to occupy myself during the endless waiting (endless le sgt...huhu)..

I haven't finished packing, yet my bag is heavier than it supposed to. I hope I don't have to pay a lot for the over-weight bag, but if I have to, then K linda has to pay for me first because I'm practically, technically and basically BROKE! huhuhu...

Gotta get ready to break my fast with the guys. Cidud belanje kami, yeay!..hehe... Doakan sy slamat smpi Malaysia yer....till then.Later! ;)

IMPORTANT!

This is a once-in-a-blue-moon type of post from the author (tidak, bulan tidak mengambang, saye masih berpuase..hoho). This post is not intended for the reading of those who hate mushy2 stuffs or PDA (public display of affections - not that I show any affection here..hohoh). To those who hate this kind of personal post, I could only say "aku punye pasal la, ni blog aku". hohoho... Thank you. ;)

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Dear awak,

After a year, I finally am going back. After a year not seeing you, finally saye akan jumpe awak balik.. Tapi, will things change? Even kita sangat jauh dari each other, dah 5789 kali kita bergaduh sampai saye dah penat. Kita clash (in my definition..hehe) mmg tak leh nak kire jugak. maybe la half from the jumlah yg kite gaduh..hohoho...

Will we keep fighting bila saya balik ni? awak tau kan betape tak sukenye saye everytime kite gaduh. Bukan je tak suka kat awak yang jadi punca (betul la..awk punca..bkn saye..hoho), tapi bile kite gaduh, membuatkan saye benci diri sndiri coz u know how ugly I can be kan bile kite gaduh. All the hurtful words yang keluar dari mulut saye or jari saya (ketika menaip sms..hehe), takde sape boleh tahan. even awak pun boleh marah saye balik even awk yg start yang of course la jangan harap saya nak bagi awak menang kan.. hoho..


Awak kate, awak x sabar nak jumpe saye. Awak kate, awak rindu saye sangat. Tapi, saye mmg tak percaye la dgn awak ni. Kalau awak rindu sy, nape suke nak wat saye marah smpi sy mnjadi lagi teruk dari incredible hulk or hulk hogan? Awak tau saye sgt sensitif, emo n pemarah, lagi awak nak menjolok sarang tebuan (betulkn bidalan saye ni?..hoho).. Saye mintak clash, awak x bagi, saye pun x paham. Awak paham x?... hohohoho....

Entah la, kite wait and see je la ape akan jadi dengan kite yer.. Tapi tu le, risau gak..huhu.. awak cube tau jangan bagi saye marah. nanti saye sedey, marah awak lagi. tak suke. Awak tolong eh baiki hati saye. Dah retak yang hampir pecah ni (waahh..hebatnye saye menggunakan ayat2 bahase melayu puitis...hohoho). saye takut nnt dia pecah beyond repair je...huhu...

Okay le awak ye, saye nak kemas2 sket. Banyak betul barang saye nak bawak balik ni. Adoii... Awak kerje elok2 k... jangan puase yang yuk pagi2 bukak periuk ye...hoho... take care yer. I'll call you later tonight (kalau saye bangun tido b4 awk tido la.. hihihi...)..

papai awak.. ;)