Nadot's Words

"Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose". ~From the television show The Wonder Years

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This morning, most of my stuffs have been collected by the shipping company to be shipped to Malaysia. i don't have much left with me here. It is sad seeing my almost-empty-but-very-messy room which indicates that my journey here has almost come to an end. The walls of my room once full of pictures, now have nothing on it. The realization hits me hard, I really am going home...huhu... :(

Anyway, I've told myself that b4 going home, I MUST go to Loch Ness. You know, the lake where people claimed to see a monster called Nessie..ring a bell?.. huhu.. Anyhow, because of the monster thingy, Loch Ness has become one of the main attractions of Scotland ever since which was why I really feel like going there....

Thanks to K Linda, Cidud and Eby for making my dream come true. We decided to rent a car on the 27th and 28th August 2008. On the 27th, we went to various places in and nearby Edinburgh starting with Livingston Designer Outlet to shop for my family. After spending almost 4 hours in the mall and hundreds of pounds, we continue our journey to Portobello Beach. Here I took loads of picture especially of Eby and Cidud jumping around and I tell you, it was hilarious..hehe... i will upload some of the shots taken in my friendster and fotopage (LATER..). After cam whoring in Portobello, we went to K Lily's place and have our dinner there. At 8pm, we rushed to Fountainpark to catch the final show of Hellboy for that day at 8.20 pm. Luckily we managed to arrived there on time and after the movie, Cidud and Eby drove us home around 11pm. K Linda and I were very exhausted and already sounded asleep before midnite.

As early as 5.20 am the next morning, both of us were already getting ready to go to our Loch Ness road trip. I called Cidud to wake him and eby up. K Linda prepared the fried rice and I took my bath and checked my camera. At around 6.30 Cidud and Eby arrived at High Riggs and pick us up.

We didn't really have anything in mind on where to go or where to stop. We just stopped whenever we saw beautiful sceneries and castles. Our first stop was the Loch Ness. We had our breakfast there and took a lot of pictures (which will be uploaded in Fotopage later). Next we stopped at Urquhart Castle (only from outside..huhu), Fort Augustus, Inverlochy castle, Stirling castle and few other places and lochs in between. We were not aware of their names but the sceneries were really breathtaking. I 'oohh' and 'aahh' all the way from the start of our journey until we were back on motorway.

I enjoyed every second of the trip even though we had to rush so that we could arrive in edinburgh before dark. I really wish I had more time to explore the Highland and not rushing like we did, but nevertheless, I really enjoyed the trip. Again, many thanks to K Linda, Cidud and Eby for putting up with my ngade-ngadeness throughout our two days together. I really gonna miss those days and thank God I have more than 600 pictures of us and all the places to remember them by... :)

Later! ;)

"Let's not forget that the little emotions are the great captains of our lives and we obey them without realizing it". ~Vincent Van Gogh, 1889

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It has been a long time since I last felt EMO and now, I'm EMO again. hohoho. I thought only one person here could make me EMO but, that person is now gone and being replaced by another person whom, sad to say, had successfully making me EMO!!..

So much for a coincidence..so, I believe that I am now being tested by Him and I should be strong and just ignore all the things or person that could make me EMO. How I wish I could be that strong...huhuhu..

Enuff said! ;)

I've submitted my dissertation...yeay!...huhu...Our dateline was supposed to be on the 22nd, but I submitted my dissertation a day earlier which was on the 21st. i don't think I did well for this dissertation, I wrote craps, I thought craps, but I really hope I'll pass my MSc..huhu.. thanks to K Linda and espcially Cidud for helping me with technical probs in my dissertation. Serius Cidud, xde ko, x siap tesis aku..hhuhuhu...tq tq tq... ;)


So now I have a week left before fasting month and need to use these days doing something memorable before I go home. I thought of going to Lochness next week but not yet sure as all of our driving licenses were dead.. huhu... i received quite a few invitation from my seniors here to visit their house for the last time. Already went to K Sham's place this evening and going to K mai's house tomorrow. Waaah..really going to miss everything and everyone here.

I really do look forward to go back even I'll miss this place very much, but, I hate the packing process and i need to do it fast as I'm going to ship most of my stuffs this becoming Saturday. I bought two boxes and thought they were enough. But by looking at all my stuffs now, I have the feeling that two boxes are not enough and I may have to tumpang other seniors. Waahh...segannye nk mintak tumpang...huhu...

i do think I sound a bit formal in this post and a bit not myself. so, before I talk craps, Id better stop! Till fingers meet keyboard again...hehe...daa~

"You must have been warned against letting the golden hours slip by; but some of them are golden only because we let them slip by".  ~James Matthew Barrie

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I've explained in my previous post how my life is kinda upside down at the moment. So, yesterday, I tried to sleep a bit earlier than usual since I woke up quite early . At around 4.20 am, I lied on my bed,  turning and twisting around on my bed and  after 2 hours, around 6.30 am, only then I managed to sleep. It was a bliss! I woke up at 4.15 pm feeling fresh...and hungry..huhu...

K Linda and I have decided earlier that we're not going to cook today. So, after taking my bath and etc, we went out to sushi bar no. 1 3 minutes walk from our flat. That is one of our fav restaurants here besides thaisanuk, Bonzai, Khushi, and so on....huhuhu.... I brought my camera along today, so I took a few shot of K linda eating and posing at the same time...hehe...

After taking pictures, gossiping and not finishing our meals (tapau as usual..hihi), we walked to the meadows which is near our flat (5 mins walk). Again, I asked K Linda to pose which she gladly complied.hehe.. So, here goes some of our gedik poses at the restaurant and the the meadows.. I'll put the rest in friendster when I have the time to do that (not like anyone want to see them anyway..hoho)...

[caption id="attachment_108" align="aligncenter" width="300" caption="K Linda ;)"][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_109" align="aligncenter" width="233" caption="Saye makan buruk, jadi, harus di edit..huhu"][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_110" align="aligncenter" width="300" caption="Our miso soups, vege dumplings and green tea ;)"][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_111" align="aligncenter" width="300" caption="takde-maknenye pose ;)"][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_112" align="aligncenter" width="300" caption="merenung-mase-depan pose -hohoho-"][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_113" align="aligncenter" width="300" caption="inhale-exhale pose"][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_114" align="aligncenter" width="300" caption="the-grass-is-greener-on-the-other-side pose ;)"][/caption]

Okay

So again, I've succeeded in wasting my time...yeay!.hoho...Later! ;)

[caption id="attachment_104" align="aligncenter" width="300" caption="The usually busy junction at 5 am"][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_105" align="aligncenter" width="300" caption="Nothing interesting in this pic, just wasting my time uploading it..huhu"][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_103" align="aligncenter" width="300" caption="5 am in Edinburgh"][/caption]

Okay, I've wasted enough time writing this post (uploading is more lke it). Got to get back to work. owh..but i feel like eating maggi. so,got to eat.. daaa~.. ;)

"How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard." ~Carol Sobieski and Thomas Meehan, Annie
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She's going home soon. She should be happy. Yes, she does feel happy. She can't wait to see her family and friends. She can't wait to go back to where she belongs to. This is not her place. She doesn't really belongs here. But, why does everytime she thought of going back, she felt empty deep down somewhere in the corner of her heart? And she feels it now.

She knows that the emptiness is just a very small fragment of other feelings she's experiencing rite now. But, she feels it. That's her problem, she feels too much. She sighs. She tries to think about all the things she might miss here and all the things starts rushing in her head, squeezing into the spaces between the nerves in her brain, colliding with her moving neurons. She couldn't list them all as there are too much.

She will first miss this city. She went to a lot of places before in this country, but never she found one as beautiful as here (even there were, she'll never admit..hihi) and she's really proud that she got the chance to live here even for only a year. She will miss her lovely modern flat, the envy of many. Her flat is provided with a lift not like most of the flats in the city which were built a long time ago with uneven staircases all the way to the top floor ( level 4 or 5 normally). She'll miss her big bedroom - her shelter from all the nastiness in the world (huhu), lepaking spot with her friends where they watched movies, played cards, gossiping, talking, scratching (thanx to broomhse guys for landing on my bed all the time and left behind 1-2 bed bugs..huhu) etc. She will miss shopping through the safe and secure online stores, she will miss shopping as a whole as the value of the money is quite high here that she can get anything here that she wouldn't dream of buying back home. She will miss all her friends here, the way they looked out for one another like a family. She'll remember how by living here, she had built and strengthen the friendship with some friends back home. And the list goes on....

She knows things will change once she's back in her hometown. All the good friends she has here, will soon have their own life and even how badly they try to maintain the friendship like they are having here, she knows, they will drift apart eventually.


And only then she realizes, she's going to miss her life here terribly. Yes, she knows she will be able to desensitize herself from this feeling sooner or later as her life will be busy, working and enjoying with friends. But, she knows too, that the small fragment of emptiness will still be there, somewhere in the corner of her heart and once in a while, something will remind her of it. And when the time comes, she hopes she will smile.

:(

Important!

This is a very emotional post and a personal view of the author. Comments that oppose the view of the author will be deleted. Comments from those who hold the same view as the author and as emotional as the author are welcome!..hohohoho


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You can say whatever you want to say. You can say that I'm being unrealistic, or childish, or even emotional. But, I really hate the ending of Sindarela! You see, I'm a suc*er for and-they-live-happily-ever-after type of ending, and the original Disney Cinderella ended her story that way. So why did the Malaysia Sindarela has to end the other way round?

Okay, in reality, I wouldn't have chose Tengku Husin myself. How could I choose a man who could say those spiteful words towards me in front of his ex and didn't contact me at all to apologize even when he felt guilty. I'm not going to choose a coward. However, that is reality and reality is everywhere around me. If I want a reality, I wouldn't waste my time waiting for Sindarela being uploaded in tv3.com. I'm real. People around me are real. The news in the newspaper are real. I had enough of reality. Could I taste a bit of fantasy by watching drama series which title is the same as one of the greatest love stories ever (Cinderella..hehehe)?

I'm not really into tv or movie etc.I'd rather sit on my bed reading novels than watching drama series or movies or etc. So, I'm very selective in choosing what to watch and usually, I'll go with stuffs that could make me laughed and happy. Yes, Sindarela did make me happy and laughed for the first 25 episodes, but in the 26th, why did Zoela not being together with Husin??!?

Enuf said! :)