Nadot's Words

" Friendship is always a sweet responsibility, never an opportunity" - Kahlil Gibran

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As usual, dalam bulan pose mesti kitorg (bdk2 'puteri' smakl batch aku) akan wat small reunion utk bukak pose...and for this year, i was the organizer..huhu..

It was held on 7th October 2006 in Seoul Bulgogi, Plaza Pantai. At first i was afraid that many couldnt join bcoz of the quite expensive price. But as i called my friends, they were very supportive and by the end of the day, 21 girls were agreed to join the reunion.

Then suddenly, i was thinking to spice the reunion a lil and i called kamarul and aizat to invite some of our 'putera' smaklian (1st time in our bukak pose history since we left school, we invited the putera). And they did a very good job - 13 guys agreed to join us.

I called the Seoul manager (Desmond) to book the place for 34 people and tried to persuade him to reduce the price (the exact price with tax w/out drinks - rm36.70). After a lot of persuading, negotiating, sweet talk (huhu), he agreed to give us 4 pax free and half price for the drinks (i nvr thought i'm a good 'negotiator'...hihi).

So, on the 7th, at 7.30 pm (after mgrb of course) we met at Seoul Bulgogi. One thing that made me proud was the presence of ex-smaklians yg kuar SMAKL after form 3 & bertahun-tahun x jumpa - nayot, dian & saleh.

Anyway, the night was really really fun. Felt like i was transported back to 6-7 yrs ago when i was still a student of SMAKL. All my friends change a bit, of course, but the feelings were the same.

While we were eating, Yah suruh aku tgk dari hujung meje sini ke hujung meje sane. Tak phm gak ape signifikan Yah suruh wat mcm tuh, the she said "Look at all the faces, they are really enjoying themselves. Congrats". And i did feel like the happiest person there...huhu

With 34 people coming, of course we havent had much time to talk to each and everyone there. But we did say hi and exchange story for a few minutes before we moved to talk to another friend. Nevertheless, the night was a success to me. Everyone mingled around well even the guys which i never spoke to in school pun, bley masuk je.

Again, i would like to thank all my friends yg dpt dtg join bukak pose itu hari. To Yah, faisz, sare, zeila, shidah, sue, dian, pnut, amal, dawat, mau, fura, ros, pj, farid, izza, nayot, mashit, raie, bai, aizat, saleh, zul, anas, kamarul, imran, mazdan, azrul hakimi, azrul effendi, usop, alonge, aie n uzain, korang mmg the best..hehehehe.. (sbb korg join korg the best la...kalo x join, tak de nye korg best...hua hua hua..)

Hope we get to this every year. May Allah bless us..

P/s:Pnut, ko amik la balik tampuk pemerintahan. Aku nk jadi timbalan je la mcm biase...huhu...

"Sekolah Menengah Agama Kuala Lumpur, Mercu tanda jaya anak bangsa                                  Punya wawasan tinggi dan mulia, ilmu beramal dan berjasa.

Sekolah Menengah Agama Kuala Lumpur, Budaya Cemerlang Akhlak Gemilang,                        Guru tercinta teladan mulia, Pelajar gigih dan berjaya.

Sekolahku, kaula pelita, penyuluh kegelapan dunia,                                                           Sekolahku, kau amat berjasa, melahirkan pejuang agama, satria negara"

Took this from my bulletin board. Have to agree to most of the things written below...but neway, im far farrr farrrr better...huhuhu...

AUGUST ATTITUDE
outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on
attention. no self control. kind hearted. self
confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful.
easy to get along with and talk to. has an "every
thing's peachy" attitude. likes talking and singing.
loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates
not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be
loved. hates studying. in need of "that someone".
longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or
restricted. lives by "no pain no gain" caring.
always a suspect. playful. mysterious. "charming"
or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious.
independent. strong willed. a fighter.

" You will know that forgiveness has begun when you recall those who hurt you and feel the power to wish them well" - Lewis B. Smedes

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Okay...I already forgave 'that someone' from my previous blog. We're cool. I guess..haha...And i made that someone promise never to lie to me again...But deep in my heart, i know, that someone will do it again....and this process of being hurt and forgive will start all over again for until-God-knows how many times...

I know forgiveness is a good thing, but sometimes i think i forgive too easily and in the end, i know i will hurt again....huhuhu..

Today is the 1st day of Ramadhan. The time is 1330 and i just woke up half an hour ago..hohoho...At 1415, I have to go to UM to see my lecturer..(bayangkan hari Ahad gi UM jmpe lecturer)....Actually she's on her sabbatical in Singapore, therefore, i only can see her on weekend when she get back to Malaysia.

Okayla..nak mandi...get ready to bukak pose..silap..get ready to see my lecturer...huhuhu...papai...

"Liars never lose trust because they never had it"

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Today, i was being lied by 'someone' i trusted (not anymore) so much in my life, and suck..it hurts like hell....it was just a small lie but i hate liars and i hate being lied to...

And the reason for 'that someone' to lie was 'nothing'.. 'THAT SOMEONE' LIED TO ME FOR NO REASON...and did 'that someone' think i was going to believe that??...does anybody lie without at least A reason??...bullshit giler ah....

enuff said...

" My hands were too soft...i had to find some special occupation, some kind of work that would not force me to turn away from the sky and the stars, that would allow me to discover the meaning of life" - Marc Chagall

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The quote above was from late Marc Chagall, a russian painter.

Lotz of thing happenned in August but havent had the chance to write 'em here. been bz working morning till nite pouring all my isi perut out...huhu...

My birhtday is in August, i graduated in August, our family day dekat kampung was in August, went to bukit merah with my family in August...pendek kate..macam-macam ada in August....hohoho....It will take me days or even month to write all these memorable event here in the blog...so..i'll pass...

I'm in my office rite now, Think PLus Consulting Sdn Bhd where i work from 9am to 1 pm as an exec. Then at 2.30 i have a tuition class in a tuition centre nearby for 2 hrs then at 7 pm-10 pm i have another class in the same tuition centre. Monday until friday except on thursday, my tuition classes are in a centre in selayang, 15 minutes driving distance from menjalara, 7-10 pm. So, i go to work at 9 am everyday and sampai rumah at 10 pm.

Tu tak termasuk dengan my part time tutor job in Science fak, UM. Fortunately the labs are on Friday and saturday yang tak clash langsung dgn any of my other jobs. Still sometimes, i have to ponteng kerje pagi coz need to go to UM jumpe lecturer regarding my Master which i juz received the offer letter last 2 days. Ni yg wat pening giler nih...x de mase nak bace pasal master. Maybe next 2 months ke im going to quit my job here in Think Plus although agak sayang coz mane nak dpt bos yg bagi kite masuk ofis 9-1 je and biler ade hal, cuti je la skati...

Friends say im workaholic, but i do think 'moneyholic' is the best to describe me...My dad pun pelik aku asyik nak simpan duit je..ade ke die suruh aku bayar road tax and insuran kerete..susah2 je...haha...plan nak pegi tengok along grad dekat manchester next year, tuh yg pulun keje tuh...Kalau tak sempat kumpul banyak, kene jugak la gune duit ayah separuh..huhuhu

Tapi serius, agak banyak gak aku menyimpan sekarang, every month siap buat budget tuh utk belanja, utk savings dll...dlm 2/5 daripada gaji aku aku simpan dalam bentuk insuran ke, asb ke dll...yg lain belanje and byr phone bill yg berlebey-lebey & byr ptptn lagi (wpun ayah bagi duit lagi utk byr bil n ptptn, tp x cukup..shhhh)..huhu...

erm..enuff for today..need to make a few phone calls to some companies to promote the event that we're organizing in Qatar in conjunction of Asia Games in Doha, Qatar this December. Okay la..enuff said....papaiii

" Without friends, no one would choose to live, though he had all other goods" - Aristotle

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It has been almost 6 years since i left SMAKL (jujur sebut name skolah tuh..haha). Tp rase mcm baru sangat je...(start jiwang dah ayat...hoho).. Tp ape yg aku nk bebel sbnrnye in this post is the relationship yg ade dgn ex-schoolmate aku.

From the day we left school until today, x pernah miss kitorg buat reunion every year..(antara kitorg-kitorg la)...bukak pose, hari raye, cuti gi pulau perhentian, mandi kat kanching, cuti gi utp, netball etc... Although x sume dtg ke sume occasions, tp ade gak yg ade inisiatif to join all the activities yg dianjurkan (ayat skema kuar dah plak...huhu)...

Ape yg aku dpt kate dr sume xtvt yg aku join, all my friends change..in a good way...even yg x pernah brape rapat kat sekolah dulu ke atau yg pernah gaduh ke, bile jmpe balik, bley wat lawak same2, gelak same2, mcm x pernah sakit hati je dolu2...(tatau la dlm hati diorg simpan lg tak...yg aku tau dlm hati budak kecik gombak...die simpan...ngade2..hahaha)

Anyway, i would like to thank all my friends especially pnut yg selalu jd leader untuk mengkontek kwn2 bg menjoin xtvt (ko mmg gile kuase), kwn2 lain yg x penah miss utk join xtvt specially amal (serius amal je kot yg x penah miss utk ape2 xtvt...org lain mesti ade miss gak at least once...giler boring la ko amal...haha)...and sume la...mls nk sebut...ade yg lupe sebut kang kecik ati lak...hoho...

To all yg dtg jamuan raye aku every yr sejak dr skolah lg, tq byk...although last yr aku x wat, dtg je la...kwn2 yg konvoi raye2 same...lst yr sgt sronok (ke umah ali n zaim)...this yr buat panggil la lg...huhu...

Kesimpulannye, aku sangat syg kwn2 skolah aku...and really hope that we will always be friend although sume org dah ade hidup masing2....(Dowh..serius aku jiwang...hahaha). Yang kurang2 berminat nak join xtvt kami akibat masalah commitment terhadap bf or gf masing2, skati korg la..mls nk lyn..haha...Sekian terima kasih...

p/s : Rencana di atas ditulis akibat kebosanan tahap dewa yg dialami oleh penulis yg sedang berada di ofis akibat tiada kerja.

" Marriage : A community consisting of a master, a mistress, and two slaves - making in all, two."

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15/07/2006, Bandar Sri Damansara Club - (Dowh..mcm heading berite lak)...Hani dah kawin!!!...The 3rd SMAKLIAN from our batch yg dah kawin... (yg aku tau la)...

So, smlm kami beramai-ramai bertolak dr rumah aku (14 org...) ke Kelab Bdr Sri Damansara. Lepak dr kul 1 lebey - 4 lebey. Terbuat mcm majlis sendiri plak...

Malas nak criter panjang...anyway, the ceremony was great, the food was good, around 20-30 smaklian dtg ke majlis - which make it more like smakl reunion instead of hani's wedding..havoc giler nak mampus...huhu...sorry hani...x berniat nak curi your spotlight...you are still the prettiest and the most beautiful bride yesterday...and always (she's a part time model)...

To Hani, may the happiness (force..huhu) be with u, until the end of time...God bless....

p/s:..Friends!!..i'll upload the pics later k...malas ar...huhu

"Why do we hurt the most, the one we love the most"...
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Same macam sepet...the uniqueness of this movie yg buatkan cite ni menarik sangat. it potrays love, faith, humanity etc...seriously, this movie is full of love..(except bile adlin buat jahat)...love is everywhere in this movie...melankolik ah aku rase...but in a good way...huhuhu

tp macam biase, x puas hati dgn ending die...same cm x puas hati dgn ending sepet...haha....  problem aku,i only accept happy ending...tuh yg sakit tuh bile sedey... (am i still talking about the movie or dah lost track??..huhu)

good movie to watch...banyak bende bley belajar...ape pun...tengok ah sendiri.... aku pun dah nak tenggelam dah nih dlm perasaan melankolik aku sendiri....hahahaha...(ayat panjang utk 'mengantuk' )                                    

" Sit quietly, doing nothing, spring comes, and the grass grows by itself" - Zen...
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I cant stop thinking, how wonderful it cud be if can live my life just like the quote above.... doing nothing and have everything....

But, in one case, i'm living my life just like the above quote, "Sit quietly, doing nothing, and my butt grows by itself"...haha..at least something does grow...

Currently, my life is about nothing. Nothing's good, nothing's bad, nothing's important, nothing's great, doing nothing, takes nothing for granted, nothing to watch on the tv (xcept the nanny..huhu), nothing to talk about and nothing for everything... As if i'm living in the world of nothingness...(oh..poor me...)..hhmm...

Rase pelik giler...when i was in my final sem, i got 2 part time jobs...and now when i've finished my study, cari keje part time pun malas giler....sekarang cume jadi part time tutor in a tuition centre near my house (3 minutes driving distance) once a week (monday) n only for 2 hours... and itu pun malas giler n rase nak quit je...tapi bile pikirkan sape nak bagi rm200(sikit tuh) utk mengajar 4 only 8 hours per month, teruskan la jugak...

But still, rase down gile, malas gile nak wat pape....next week ade appointment dgn lecturer 2 discuss bout my MSc in research...hope it goes well so i can start on my proposal ASAP... at least x tertekan sangat dok rumah doing nothing...i can tell peeps that im working on my proposal, so it wont be consider as doing nothing..aite??...

ok...got to start packing..tido kat kolej tonite...so, no internet 4 2nite..gonna miss u my streamyx... (see how pathetic i am...dok rumah doing nothing n internet terpasang 24/7...no..lets make it 18/7 - i need to sleep 2 ok...)

Anyway...just hoping tomorrow and the days ahead will bring something 2 end up my nothingness ...InsyaAllah...

15 & 16th of February 2006 - Bangunan Peperiksaan Universiti Malaya

Semalam n kelmarin, baru lepas amik exam PTD - pegawai tadbir diplomatik..ade 7 papers all together...4 papers on the 1st day, n 3 on the next...1st paper pasal sahsiah diri...sronok je jawab...jawapan YA atau TIDAK je...satu soalan tanye "Pernahkah anda mengumpat?"  Of course la jawapan die YA kan...huhu...soalan Pengajian am mrepek nak mampus...ade ke tanye sape dapat anugerah sastera la...sah2 tatau...the easiest question in that paper, "Old Trafford merupakan stadium rasmi bagi?"...itu je soalan aku yakin betul...
Utk iq test lak x cukup mase...ade 40 soalan, time aku baru jawab soalan ke-20, mase tinggal 5 minit dah...so...kalo dah mcm tuh jwb, ..sndri tau la dpt ke x...huhu..

pening kepale dah main tekken 5...so, stop sini...chiaaoow...

"Shared joy is a double joy; shared sorrow is a half sorrow" - Swedish Proverb
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On 29th of Jan 2006 - Chinese New Year, sepupu aku- my age, bertunang...so since Jumaat lagi, aku dah lepak kg, tido 3 mlm kat kg - perkare yg agak mengejutkan utk sedare2 aku coz last aku tido lame giler kat kg mase sek rendah ar...

She did all the hantaran herself - 13 dulang berbalas 11 (my mom tolong dgn sirih junjung) kerje aku habiskn sweets dgn choc yg berlebey...huhu, theme color-krim keemasan..agak sweet  la...suke tgk...My cuz pakai baju kaler merah yg jenis sari songket..murah je, x beriye sgt..tp nmpk mcm org nk kawin la gak coz mcm kain songket....make up pun, kwn2 die je tolong, x yah nk upah org...kire suke la coz simple giler...


                                                   


                                                Ni la hantaran dari belah perempuan nak bg kat laki.....

Actually, sepupu aku ni nak cube nampakkn lg simple kenduri ni, tp disbbkan sedare kitorg yg ramai giler (cicit nenek aku je dah 20 org - plg bsr form 4), nampak sgt meriah la kenduri ni, mcm kawin pun ade...ditambah lg dengan family pihak lelaki yg ramai gak dtg (laki ni anak sulung so famili die dr s'pore pun trn tgk).

Aku mmg target nk kawin 28 n tunang kejap je...tp bile tgk sepupu aku tunang rase seronok lak, nak rase gak...bkn sbb ape sgt, tp sbb dp barang hantaran n melawa sket je...huhu... Neway, diorg plan ikat for 1-2 tahun and i wish 'em kekal sampai akhir hayat...amiinnn...

                                                 


                                        Dgn Mak2 sedare,spupu2,anak2 sedare mase pihak laki tgh mkn..

"Saying goodbye doesn't always mean that you are weak, sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go.."
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Good news : Laptop dah ok!!!
Bad news    : I used my own money to pay for the service..cost me RM1436...my own money!!! and now i only have RM200 in my ASB...sedey giler....ok la coz i learn to appreciate things more...tapi...all my savings, gaji2 dari 2-3 part time jobs habis mcm tu je...serius aku down giler babi....huhu...sampai aku dapat balik my RM1500, then only i'll be whole again...aarrgghh!!!

Neway, enuf with the laptop...so many things had happened since my laptop buat hal...which i better keep it to myself (n few people yg mmg tau)...

Since the event took place...i kept wondering to myself...are 'we' making the right decision???..is this the right path??..i just don't know what to do, or where to go next...i'm not sure whether this is suppose to be..or are we just hanging on and linger to something that is no longer there...???..

A friend told me, "close your eyes, free your mind and think...is this what you really want??"..
I did close my eyes, but it was hard to free my mind...i think a lot..n it seems like i cant stop thinking about everything...

Sometimes, people linger in relationships that are dead, out of fear of being alone or to postpone the inevitable grieving process that accompanies endings...But again sometimes, we need to linger for a while, to prepare ourselves, to get strong and ready enough to handle the change...and i don't want all these to be the reasons we are still together...i want the feeling to be real...not because we are afraid of what will or will not happen...

I know and understand that all the decisions made, and the path chosen will lead us somewhere...n whether we are in the right track or not, whether this path  will lead us to more happiness or sorrow, we just have to live with it, to make the best out of it, so we won't regret our decision. But if we're not meant to be, and we really have to go on our separate ways, i wish (hard) it wont be...now...and when the time comes,i wish i'll have enuf strength to let u go, n u'll have enuf strength to let me go...God bless us...

Sedey giler....laptop rosak...kene panah petir...normally i wud shut up off my laptop mase hujan ribut petir...tp time tuh tak hujan lagi...kire first petir yg dtg tuh, trus attack my laptop...dowh...sedey gile..so now i'm in UM dekat lab com fak sains..

baru lps anta laptop gi service kat HP tower...mesti mahal gile..tp better anta sane kot dari anta kat kedai biase2...kan..kan..kan... (menenangkn diri sendiri)...

sedey sgt...biasenye kat rumah makan laptop, minum laptop, tido laptop...smlm bosan giler...buku sume dah habis bace...terpakse la mengulang2...dah le amik lebey kurang 3 working days diorg nak check dulu...then kalo aku ok dgn harge die baru proceed menyervice laptop tuh...gile lame...maybe dlm next 2 weeks baru dpt balik laptop...

i have to find a new hobby i guess...ataupun panjangkan waktu tido stiap hari...dari 10 jam have to extend sampai 15 jam ke...ok kan??...huhu...

lupe plak...dpt keje sementare as a examination attendant starting next wednesday..tp ade briefing esok...so..boleh le idup tanpe laptop jap kot...huhu...still sedey...

anyway...have a nice day guyss...huhu...

NEW YEAR as usual xde bwk maksud ape2 dlm idup aku - just a reminder of how fast im getting older n add a year 2 my age...gile cepat....rase mcm baru je smlm aku masuk darjah 1 dekat SRK Convent Ipoh n now, i've finished my degree kt UM terchenta...huhu...

AArrggghh...i'm getting OLDER...tambah lagi wrinkles dkt muke...tambah masalah...tambah lemak...tambah la sume bende...kecik ati aku...wish i cud go back 2 my childhood days...although x le sumenye  best sgt...tp better la compare dgn zaman skrg....

Tp, yg dah lepas tuh tetap dh lepas...We dont have to forget the past or try to cover it up...it simply means, we move on and cherish all the memories....dan utk move on, we have to make sure that 2day is better than ysterday n 2morrow will b better than 2day...(di mana ini lah yg susah utk aku praktikkan...huhu...)

Ape pun, aku doa agar diberi kekuatan utk menjalani hari esok dan hari2 mendatang dgn jayanya...aamiinnnn....

"We are what we think. All that we are arises with our thoughts. With our thoughts, we make the world"...
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I just finished reading this book i bought a week ago..titled "If i had a wicked stepmother, where's my prince?"
Panjangkan tajuk....huhu..
This book is about a girl named Lucy-a sophomore, who moved from San Francisco all the way to New York after her father remarried a woman named Mara with 2 daughters. The only difference she had with the real cinderella is her father is still alive - only that he spends monday to friday in S.F finishing his case (he's a lawyer). So, technically she's the cinderella of this century...huhu..

    You guys may think this book is typical cinderella with a horrible stepmom n 2 gedik stepsis and ending with they-lived-happily-ever-after. Actually it is..heheh..But the gist of this story is slightly different. I cant explain it in words...so i recommend u guys...no..i mean girls (i dont think guys would be interested in this kind of book) to buy this book -it only costs RM60 - hardcover...huhu..( i know.. quite expensive 4 a book - but if u spend most of ur times reading n u are so into books like i do, it so worth it..)

    Written by Melissa Kantor - author of "Confessions of a Not It Girl"  which i havent had the chance to read yet but definitely going to buy. It's a chic-lit kinda story n i do really like her narration...there's a touch of funny, sad, witty, touching, etc and yes..it makes me cry...huhu.. ( i'm just sensitive.. ok..)

    Anyway..here's the cover of the book n hope u'll like it..muaahhzzz..





Like it..huhu

aku sgt marah sekarang.... marah dekat 2 org yg x sepatutnye aku marah... yg x sepatutnye sape2 marah... tp aku marah sgt... tambah2 lg ingatan kat zaman dolu2 x hilang lagi... lagi la wat aku marah...
     Ade org kate " The things we remember the best are those better forgotten". Masalahnye aku x leh lupe bende yg zaman dolu2 tu... bende yg buatkan aku hidup x tenang sampai bile2... bende yg membuatkan aku jd seorg yg pemarah... aku nk cakap dekat org tu yg aku marah x leh... sbb aku takut... takut sgt... sbb die ajar aku jd takut...
    Aku x dendam... mmg x dendam... tp aku marah... sbb diorg buat aku jd mcm ni... tp aku jd mcm ni, diorg marah... (pening ke ayat aku ni???...aku pun pening...huhu)...
    Aku pk balik, ape yg aku buat yg membuatkan diorg marah, semue ade kene mengene dengan ape yg diorg penah buat n citer kat aku... So, ape salah aku??...
    Aku x sabar nak mulakan hidup aku dengan betul...ALONE!!...Liverpool punye motto yang menyatakan "You'll never walk alone"  tuh poyo ah...We'll always be alone... we cant rely on others for our happiness... sume tuh bergantung kat diri sndiri... ape yg kite perlu buat utk tak rase empty is dont stop loving...tu je buat kite kuat...tp ape pun...kite sume mmg 'alone' dlm erti kate sbnr... mati  nnt pun sorg2...huhu
    kusuik kopalo den pk hal idup. Basimpang siur raso urat kopalo. Indak tau nak buek apo... cheh!kuar bhaso minang + ngr smbilan...huhu..srius pening...rase mls nk idup pun ade...malas je...bkn rase nk mati... hehe...

    "O God the Almighty,
    I pray for courage as i begin this day
    For i understand there is work to be done
    burdens to be carried,
    feeling to be shared and joys to be celebrated;
    And when this day is done O Lord,
    may i have the courage to see Thy guiding hand
    in the friendships that have been made,
    in the hurts that have been healed,
    and in the strength that has been given"
    Amin Ya Rabbal 'Alamin...