Nadot's Words

" Sit quietly, doing nothing, spring comes, and the grass grows by itself" - Zen...
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I cant stop thinking, how wonderful it cud be if can live my life just like the quote above.... doing nothing and have everything....

But, in one case, i'm living my life just like the above quote, "Sit quietly, doing nothing, and my butt grows by itself"...haha..at least something does grow...

Currently, my life is about nothing. Nothing's good, nothing's bad, nothing's important, nothing's great, doing nothing, takes nothing for granted, nothing to watch on the tv (xcept the nanny..huhu), nothing to talk about and nothing for everything... As if i'm living in the world of nothingness...(oh..poor me...)..hhmm...

Rase pelik giler...when i was in my final sem, i got 2 part time jobs...and now when i've finished my study, cari keje part time pun malas giler....sekarang cume jadi part time tutor in a tuition centre near my house (3 minutes driving distance) once a week (monday) n only for 2 hours... and itu pun malas giler n rase nak quit je...tapi bile pikirkan sape nak bagi rm200(sikit tuh) utk mengajar 4 only 8 hours per month, teruskan la jugak...

But still, rase down gile, malas gile nak wat pape....next week ade appointment dgn lecturer 2 discuss bout my MSc in research...hope it goes well so i can start on my proposal ASAP... at least x tertekan sangat dok rumah doing nothing...i can tell peeps that im working on my proposal, so it wont be consider as doing nothing..aite??...

ok...got to start packing..tido kat kolej tonite...so, no internet 4 2nite..gonna miss u my streamyx... (see how pathetic i am...dok rumah doing nothing n internet terpasang 24/7...no..lets make it 18/7 - i need to sleep 2 ok...)

Anyway...just hoping tomorrow and the days ahead will bring something 2 end up my nothingness ...InsyaAllah...

15 & 16th of February 2006 - Bangunan Peperiksaan Universiti Malaya

Semalam n kelmarin, baru lepas amik exam PTD - pegawai tadbir diplomatik..ade 7 papers all together...4 papers on the 1st day, n 3 on the next...1st paper pasal sahsiah diri...sronok je jawab...jawapan YA atau TIDAK je...satu soalan tanye "Pernahkah anda mengumpat?"  Of course la jawapan die YA kan...huhu...soalan Pengajian am mrepek nak mampus...ade ke tanye sape dapat anugerah sastera la...sah2 tatau...the easiest question in that paper, "Old Trafford merupakan stadium rasmi bagi?"...itu je soalan aku yakin betul...
Utk iq test lak x cukup mase...ade 40 soalan, time aku baru jawab soalan ke-20, mase tinggal 5 minit dah...so...kalo dah mcm tuh jwb, ..sndri tau la dpt ke x...huhu..

pening kepale dah main tekken 5...so, stop sini...chiaaoow...

"Shared joy is a double joy; shared sorrow is a half sorrow" - Swedish Proverb
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On 29th of Jan 2006 - Chinese New Year, sepupu aku- my age, bertunang...so since Jumaat lagi, aku dah lepak kg, tido 3 mlm kat kg - perkare yg agak mengejutkan utk sedare2 aku coz last aku tido lame giler kat kg mase sek rendah ar...

She did all the hantaran herself - 13 dulang berbalas 11 (my mom tolong dgn sirih junjung) kerje aku habiskn sweets dgn choc yg berlebey...huhu, theme color-krim keemasan..agak sweet  la...suke tgk...My cuz pakai baju kaler merah yg jenis sari songket..murah je, x beriye sgt..tp nmpk mcm org nk kawin la gak coz mcm kain songket....make up pun, kwn2 die je tolong, x yah nk upah org...kire suke la coz simple giler...


                                                   


                                                Ni la hantaran dari belah perempuan nak bg kat laki.....

Actually, sepupu aku ni nak cube nampakkn lg simple kenduri ni, tp disbbkan sedare kitorg yg ramai giler (cicit nenek aku je dah 20 org - plg bsr form 4), nampak sgt meriah la kenduri ni, mcm kawin pun ade...ditambah lg dengan family pihak lelaki yg ramai gak dtg (laki ni anak sulung so famili die dr s'pore pun trn tgk).

Aku mmg target nk kawin 28 n tunang kejap je...tp bile tgk sepupu aku tunang rase seronok lak, nak rase gak...bkn sbb ape sgt, tp sbb dp barang hantaran n melawa sket je...huhu... Neway, diorg plan ikat for 1-2 tahun and i wish 'em kekal sampai akhir hayat...amiinnn...

                                                 


                                        Dgn Mak2 sedare,spupu2,anak2 sedare mase pihak laki tgh mkn..

"Saying goodbye doesn't always mean that you are weak, sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go.."
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Good news : Laptop dah ok!!!
Bad news    : I used my own money to pay for the service..cost me RM1436...my own money!!! and now i only have RM200 in my ASB...sedey giler....ok la coz i learn to appreciate things more...tapi...all my savings, gaji2 dari 2-3 part time jobs habis mcm tu je...serius aku down giler babi....huhu...sampai aku dapat balik my RM1500, then only i'll be whole again...aarrgghh!!!

Neway, enuf with the laptop...so many things had happened since my laptop buat hal...which i better keep it to myself (n few people yg mmg tau)...

Since the event took place...i kept wondering to myself...are 'we' making the right decision???..is this the right path??..i just don't know what to do, or where to go next...i'm not sure whether this is suppose to be..or are we just hanging on and linger to something that is no longer there...???..

A friend told me, "close your eyes, free your mind and think...is this what you really want??"..
I did close my eyes, but it was hard to free my mind...i think a lot..n it seems like i cant stop thinking about everything...

Sometimes, people linger in relationships that are dead, out of fear of being alone or to postpone the inevitable grieving process that accompanies endings...But again sometimes, we need to linger for a while, to prepare ourselves, to get strong and ready enough to handle the change...and i don't want all these to be the reasons we are still together...i want the feeling to be real...not because we are afraid of what will or will not happen...

I know and understand that all the decisions made, and the path chosen will lead us somewhere...n whether we are in the right track or not, whether this path  will lead us to more happiness or sorrow, we just have to live with it, to make the best out of it, so we won't regret our decision. But if we're not meant to be, and we really have to go on our separate ways, i wish (hard) it wont be...now...and when the time comes,i wish i'll have enuf strength to let u go, n u'll have enuf strength to let me go...God bless us...

Sedey giler....laptop rosak...kene panah petir...normally i wud shut up off my laptop mase hujan ribut petir...tp time tuh tak hujan lagi...kire first petir yg dtg tuh, trus attack my laptop...dowh...sedey gile..so now i'm in UM dekat lab com fak sains..

baru lps anta laptop gi service kat HP tower...mesti mahal gile..tp better anta sane kot dari anta kat kedai biase2...kan..kan..kan... (menenangkn diri sendiri)...

sedey sgt...biasenye kat rumah makan laptop, minum laptop, tido laptop...smlm bosan giler...buku sume dah habis bace...terpakse la mengulang2...dah le amik lebey kurang 3 working days diorg nak check dulu...then kalo aku ok dgn harge die baru proceed menyervice laptop tuh...gile lame...maybe dlm next 2 weeks baru dpt balik laptop...

i have to find a new hobby i guess...ataupun panjangkan waktu tido stiap hari...dari 10 jam have to extend sampai 15 jam ke...ok kan??...huhu...

lupe plak...dpt keje sementare as a examination attendant starting next wednesday..tp ade briefing esok...so..boleh le idup tanpe laptop jap kot...huhu...still sedey...

anyway...have a nice day guyss...huhu...

NEW YEAR as usual xde bwk maksud ape2 dlm idup aku - just a reminder of how fast im getting older n add a year 2 my age...gile cepat....rase mcm baru je smlm aku masuk darjah 1 dekat SRK Convent Ipoh n now, i've finished my degree kt UM terchenta...huhu...

AArrggghh...i'm getting OLDER...tambah lagi wrinkles dkt muke...tambah masalah...tambah lemak...tambah la sume bende...kecik ati aku...wish i cud go back 2 my childhood days...although x le sumenye  best sgt...tp better la compare dgn zaman skrg....

Tp, yg dah lepas tuh tetap dh lepas...We dont have to forget the past or try to cover it up...it simply means, we move on and cherish all the memories....dan utk move on, we have to make sure that 2day is better than ysterday n 2morrow will b better than 2day...(di mana ini lah yg susah utk aku praktikkan...huhu...)

Ape pun, aku doa agar diberi kekuatan utk menjalani hari esok dan hari2 mendatang dgn jayanya...aamiinnnn....

"We are what we think. All that we are arises with our thoughts. With our thoughts, we make the world"...
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I just finished reading this book i bought a week ago..titled "If i had a wicked stepmother, where's my prince?"
Panjangkan tajuk....huhu..
This book is about a girl named Lucy-a sophomore, who moved from San Francisco all the way to New York after her father remarried a woman named Mara with 2 daughters. The only difference she had with the real cinderella is her father is still alive - only that he spends monday to friday in S.F finishing his case (he's a lawyer). So, technically she's the cinderella of this century...huhu..

    You guys may think this book is typical cinderella with a horrible stepmom n 2 gedik stepsis and ending with they-lived-happily-ever-after. Actually it is..heheh..But the gist of this story is slightly different. I cant explain it in words...so i recommend u guys...no..i mean girls (i dont think guys would be interested in this kind of book) to buy this book -it only costs RM60 - hardcover...huhu..( i know.. quite expensive 4 a book - but if u spend most of ur times reading n u are so into books like i do, it so worth it..)

    Written by Melissa Kantor - author of "Confessions of a Not It Girl"  which i havent had the chance to read yet but definitely going to buy. It's a chic-lit kinda story n i do really like her narration...there's a touch of funny, sad, witty, touching, etc and yes..it makes me cry...huhu.. ( i'm just sensitive.. ok..)

    Anyway..here's the cover of the book n hope u'll like it..muaahhzzz..





Like it..huhu