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Monday, 9 June 2008

~Her story - Part 5 dah?~..huhuhu

"The road leading to a goal does not separate you from the destination; it is essentially a part of it." ~Charles DeLint

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The bus was approaching. She stood and waited for the bus to stop. The bus stopped right in front of her and opened its door. "Hi!", greeted the driver. She smiled politely and swiped her card on the card-swiping-machine (whatever it was called) and took her sit next to the window. The bus began its journey to the city.


It was warm and sunny outside. But she liked the weather very much. It wasn't as hot as her own country. For her, the weather was perfect. The weather itself made her smile (provided nothing happened that could change her mood). And she knew, mid spring to summer was her favourite weather here in Edinburgh and she will miss it so much once she's back in Malaysia.

From inside the bus, she looked at the outside world as if she was seeing from a giant screen cinema. The world was really like a big massive stage she thought. While the bus stopped at the red light, she saw an elderly couple in their 70s or 80s walking hand in hand on the busy pedestrian sidewalk, oblivious to the rest of the world. The scene reminded her to a conversation she had with a friend. She told that friend that she really hope that she and her husband (whoever he might be) will still be holding hand walking together no matter how old they are, as long as they are still alive. Being a typical malay guy friend, she was laughed at. She was told that she was a hopeless romantic and that wasn't likely to happen. But she didn't care. She said that was what she wanted and that was what she would do. She smiled to herself again.

The bus kept on moving and was almost approaching the city. And she kept on watching and observing the world as if she was watching a life performance on a theater stage. All the scenes that she saw made her smile. "Do these people realize that they are being watched?", she thought to herself. "Obviously not", she answered her question herself with another smile.

The bus finally approaching Princes St. She pressed the bell and the bus stopped at the next stop. She get off the bus and crossed the road to another bus stop where she need to take another bus to go home.

And that was how she pictured life as. Some people reached their destination or goal easily and some have to work hard and try different ways to make it. And in the end, is not whether you achieved your goal or not, but the effort you put in, that's what really matters. Just as long as you do your best, just be rest assured that God will take care of the rest.

The last bus to take her home was approaching. And for the umpteenth times that day, she smiled again... :)



Sunday, 1 June 2008

I'm in Galway, Ireland!!!!!!!

Hi Guysss!!!!!!!!!!! It's my 2nd day here in Galway, Ireland. The weather was nice and very sunny today. We walked from Mira's place which is quite near the centre all the way to Salthill which is 30-40 mins walking distance, taking pictures along the way. Not going to go into details about it as I have to sleep and get up early tomorrow to prepare some foods for our one day trip tomorrow to some places near Galway.

And around midnight, Kak Linda and I have to get ready to take our bus back to Dublin Airport at 1.15 am and will fly back to Edinburgh at 6.30 am and arrives at 7.40 am.

Anyway, I'm feeling kinda useless and hopeless right now (Nothing to do with this trip). Two things are bugging my mind which i'm not in the mood to share as they are not very important, really. For one thing, I hope that God shows me the way and hope it ends well whatever the ending is. And for the 2nd thing, I'm sad and annoyed with myself for butting in other people's problem at the first place and in the end just getting myself dissapointed as I couldn't really do anything about it.

I'm getting my sleep now. Enuff said...

Wednesday, 28 May 2008

~3 months to go..and yep..i'm still counting..huhu~

June is coming in the next few days and that means i have 3 months left before i'm going back to my blood-spilled-land (tanah tumpah darah)...hohoho..

Loads of things need to be settled particularly regarding my dissertation which i am in no mood talking (ended up talking about it in the next few sentences) or doing anything about it. Going to the zoo, waiting for the rhino training for hours and ended up with no training was really depressing and frustrating. My data collection which supposed to be done by end of May have to be extended until God-knows-when. 8 more training to go and 3 more weeks before my trip to Paris. Wishing for a miracle from Karen, Sue and Alan (the Rhino keepers and trainers) that they could conduct at least 3 trainings in a week (which they should do according to Rob (my supervisor)).


Loads of places to go before I'm going back home. This Friday, i'm going to Ireland visiting Mira. Next 3 weeks to Paris and to Essex, London, Manchester, Preston and York early of July together with Alang from Russia who is coming to visit me on her summer break. These are the places that we are already confirmed to go. But still there are quite few places that we might consider visiting i.e Hull, Cardiff etc. not sure where to fit them in my schedule.huhu..

Best of luck to myself , wishing and praying that Allah would give me more strength to finish my dissertation in time and with less difficulties. Amiiinn... ;)

Friday, 16 May 2008

A wedding card, a parcel, and a sweet gift ~ =)

"It isn't the size of the gift that matters, but the size of the heart that gives it." ~Quoted in The Angels' Little Instruction Book by Eileen Elias Freeman, 1994

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Sonoknye....

today, I received a wedding card from Ziera. Yup, I know I couldn't attend the ceremony, but I could feel the excitement and am really happy for her and fazli. Second wedding card I received in Scotland after Farah's. Thanks Farah and Ziera for wasting your time and money sending me your wedding card all the way from Malaysia to Scotland even you guys knew I couldn't attend. Thank you so much..Love you both..

Besides Ziera's card, I've also received a parcel from my mom..yeay!!..been waiting for it for a week.. Can't wait to read Conan 60 that mom sent. Mekaceh Mak...muaaahhhzzz...hihihi...

Inside the parcel was also a gift from AWAK... I knew that he was going to send me something through my mom. But he said it was a surprise and just wait and see. But my mom, not knowing that it was a suprise, told me when we talked on the phone what AWAK bought for me.. AWAK..next time, wrap la bende tu.. So, bcoz suprise tak jadi...Nak suprise lagi AWAK..boleh??..hehehe...just kidding... Anyway, I really love it.. I wonder where you got your good taste from(from me la...hehehe)...

Okay guys...K linda dah panggil utk lunch..

Till the next post...later! :)

Thursday, 15 May 2008

Her story - part 4 ~ Tribute to a friend

There is magic in long-distance friendships. They let you relate to other human beings in a way that goes beyond being physically together and is often more profound. ~Diana Cortes

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She felt terrible yesterday. She'd hurt her good friend. The friend said she had not. But she knew she did. That friend as usual just being a good friend told her that that friend didn't feel anything and that she'd just imagining things. But, knowing herself, she knew she hurt that friend.

She can be very very persuasive at times. And yesterday she was being very persuasive to that friend. It wasn't entirely her fault really as that friend had promised before that she could ask anything she wanted except one or two things that that friend told her not to. So yesterday, she asked that friend a question that wasn't on the list of the questions not to be asked. But that friend can't answer that question and that friend apologized for not being able to answer.

But being her persuasive self, she demanded the answer from that friend and start to bring up the past conversation when that friend told her that she could ask anything. But that friend just apologized and blamed that-friend-self again and again and never once that friend blamed her for forcing that friend to tell her something that that friend couldn't tell.

That friend was being very gentle and tried really hard not to hurt her more as that friend knew she has a very sensitive heart and sulk easily even she continued to demand the answer to a not-important-question. And after a long conversation of her demanding and that friend apologizing, she realized, as usual, she was being childish again. She realized that things won't always worked out like the way she wanted and she can't force that friend to do what the friend didn't want to do just to fill her curiosity. And that friend kept saying that she wasn't the one to be blamed, she was a good friend and etc to lift her up.


She still has a lot to learn not only on how to be a good friend, but a good human being as well.

To that friend, thank you for being a good friend. And even one day we'll contact each other less as we both will have our own separate life, just so you know and hope you'll remember that you had once been considered as one of my good friends and I'm honored to be your friend as well (since 2001 ke 2002 eh?..huhu)...

Later..

Saturday, 10 May 2008

~Her Story - Part 3 eh?..huhu~

"Have you ever been hurt and the place tries to heal a bit, and you just pull the scar off of it over and over again. " ~Rosa Parks

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She's tired of all the fightings. She's tired of feeling angry and sad. She wants to be happy. But lately what they did was fighting all the time. It wasn't actually fighting as she was the one who did all the talking when he started to say wrong thing at the wrong time or didn't say anything at all when all she wanted was soothing words to make her feel better. She hates it when everytime she wasn't feeling good and need someone to talk to, she had to turn to her friends instead of him to make her feel better.


She blames herself for having a very very very sensitive heart. But she blames him more for not understanding her enough after almost 4 years together. He said everything will be better once she goes back home. "Will it be better?", often she wondered. Is their love so weak that it can only be good when they're near but not when they are far from each other? Isn't a true love should make it through all conditions, through thick and thin, through far or near, through everything??!?

She didn't care if he soothed her with words taken from movies or from poems, or maybe from song lyrics, but why can't he just comforted her? Was it so hard to make her feel better?


She's really confuse right now. She hates being sad. She hates being gloomy as gloom as the weather today. No sun for the whole day and she just spent her day on her bed watching videos on you tube.

Just one question in her read right now, will 'they' survive?

Enuff said... :(

Friday, 9 May 2008

Spring is here~

Waaahhh...haven't write for quite a long time... even i'm not a good writer or a good story teller, but still i miss writing in this blog...huhu...so..here comes my first entry for this month...


Lots had happened since my last entry.. not going to write everything here though.. huhu...

Anyway, the weather here is getting better and better everyday - as in warmer and sunnier; which resulted in a happier me! (My mood is affected by the weather) ...hehe...I bought some flowering plants from Dobbies and planted them on my balcony.

Yesterday, K Linda and I went for a stroll along the Union Canal , 5 minutes walking distance from our flat, and jakun2 there for a while.

This afternoon, we went to Silverknowes Beach here in Edinburgh - 25 minutes by bus from the city centre. We were very excited after sgt lame terperuk dekat rumah all these while during autumn and winter... So, again we were very jakun and i can't stop myself from posing & menggedik2 dpn kamera di laut...huhuhu...

Hurm....I don't really know why..but suddenly, I've lost my mood to write...so...till fingers meet keyboard again...later... hoho